if your idea of being there for me is to slowly tear me apart,

i'm sorry to say this with deep regret, but you're not welcomed.


i'll be better off by myself.

Bianca
Michael Jackson
Farah Fawcett


we will remember.

well at least you get to meet hide-sama, right?

at the rate and speed of which i get angry, i will not be surprised if i die from suicide because of excess rage. or something related.

i don't know if i think of X too much, or i think of work too much.

because i dreamt of X in concert in some i dont know where? and hide sama was there, and they were doing this weird thing, wherethey climb up this ultra high flag-pole like thingie, and yo-sama was flailing away at the top holding on with only 1 hand, and i was freaking out. OMG YOSHIKI YOSHIKI!!1 lol.

then when they reached the top they played rusty nail <3

then suddenly, i don't remember why, i started to run towards the ultra-high flag pole like thingie because... well, i don't know why. then suddenly yoshiki's assistant or some staff came near me to give out some stuff. and it was..

it was...

A RUNDOWN.

wtf?!

well, actually if yo-sama gave me any crazy killer rundown, i will still do it!!!

yoshiki!!!! <3

then my phone rang, and i woke up. TT-------------TT

is trying to convince myself that it's ok not to look good, while at the same time denouncing the ideal of "superficiality" a very stupid thing to do when i'm jealous of super cute manga-like girls?!?!!!!1

i sure think so.

the concert made me find that i am still human, and i am so vulnerable to beauty.

thank you, X.

and R.I.P. my dear hide-sama....

finally, i can rest in peace.

it was a beautiful experience. a beautiful concert. i cried so many times. and now i can die with 1 less regret.

thank you yoshiki-sama for making my dream come true.

i love you, X JAPAN. sincerely, i do. more than like a fangirl.

for the hope the music brings.
i am thankful.

i'm gata, from singapore, i'm proud to be who i am. and i'm proud to be gay!

idaho day is the a day against homophobia and transphobia. let's try make the world more gay friendly!!! :D

i was so glad that 太鼓の達人11（亚洲版） had X JAPAN'S 紅.

i was like OMG X JAPAN!! KURENAI!!! (lol i am crazy i know) thank you bandai/namco for recognizing the greatest rock band in japanese history..

and about x. if nothing happens in singapore, i will go to PANCHIAO STADIUM, TAIPEI, TO SEE X!!!!

in case you didn't already know SUGIZO-sama from LUNA SEA has officially joined X JAPAN. yay!!! and heath is not leaving! xD

hello, sexy.

I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED.

full speed ahead! WE ARE X!

maybe there is such a thing as "the real world" after all.

i has them.
very dark ones.

i must be dying aging

ROSA - VIOLET UK

When the love turns into ashes
Will it survive with all its senses
Or will it die before its life ever lives



JADE - X JAPAN

i think i'm dying.

‘Cause you are beautiful,
your scars are beautiful,
Like the jade
You’ll still shine,
when you sink into the sea
When all the bleeding scarlet jealousy
goes away with me

when the things you think you know best suddenly seem strange,
you know you're fucked up.

i think i'm mentally moulting.

because if it doesn't the concert will be concert, or i wouldn't be able to go watch x...

and i shall be very very very very very very (very...) upset.

i feel like i'm not fated to watch x live. and i feel like a certain character from se diao ying xiong zuan.


meh.

as for my piano lessons, my progress is better than i expected. but i know i can do better than this, still.

i still haven't learnt the bridge/"days of joy, days of sadness" part of endless rain, though.

i want to play like yoshiki-sama.




it's only SGD$1 818 195.27

present?

Pick Your Artist:
X Japan

Are you male or female:
20th century Boy

Describe yourself:
Blue Blood

How do you feel about yourself:
Stab Me in the Back

Describe where you currently live:
White Poem I

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Drain (LOL)

Your favorite form of transportation:
White Wind From Mr. Martin ~Pata's Nap~

Your best friend is:
Alive

Your favorite color is:
紅

What's the weather like:
Endless Rain

Favorite time of day:
Break the Darkness

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Art Of Life

What is life to you:
The Last Song

What is the best advice you have to give:
I'll Kill You

If you could change your name, what would it be:
Dahlia

Your favorite food is:
オルガズム (orgasm)

Thought for the Day:
Week End

How I would like to die:
Rusty Nail

My soul's present condition:
Silent Jealousy

My motto:
Give Me The Pleasure


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Pick Your Artist:
Sade

Are you male or female:
You're Not the Man

Describe yourself:
Smooth Operator ;D

How do you feel about yourself:
I Never Thought I'd See the Day

Describe where you currently live:
By Your Side

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Paradise

Your favorite form of transportation:
Mermaid

Your best friend is:
Punch Drunk

Your favorite color is:
Pearls

What's the weather like:
Keep Looking

Favorite time of day:
Cherish the Day

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Is it a Crime?

What is life to you:
Give It Up

What is the best advice you have to give:
Love Is Stronger Than Pride

If you could change your name, what would it be:
Sally

Your favorite food is:
Cherry Pie

Thought for the Day:
Why Can't We Live Together

How I would like to die:
Feel No Pain

My soul's present condition:
Fear

My motto:
Bullet Proof Soul

it's very noisy
i'm very irritated
i can't even hear my piano when i play it.

fuck. and they say the construction will end "BEFORE CHRISTMAS" pcb.

i will not initiate conversations unless absolutely necessary.

i dont like people who cannot speell.

i dont like inefficiency.

i hate bad grammar. it makes me want to die.

I HATE GENDER EQUALITY. IT MAKES ME VERY ANGRY.

then i can come back and die in peace. or die there also can.